[ unfortunately for renji, keigo was the type of person who was eager to take the easiest route possible when it came to doing just about anything, for the most part. once he'd realized he was able to perform this little parlor trick (at least that's how he felt about it) it was only natural that he'd do it again and again. for as selfish as keigo could be, he also knew that his demanding nature could push people away. and renji was not a person he felt he should trouble with his problems so directly and so frequently.
and keigo nearly continued to keep that part to himself. he looked down at the floor for a moment, then lifted his gaze to renji again. he noted the flushed look on his face, how he was struggling to justify the admission keigo had willingly given up. keigo thought about it in that moment. how often he kept things to himself, how much he truly kept bottled up inside. how much he despaired when his friends did the same thing to him, when they refused to open up to him.
did he really want to continue to do that to renji? he meant so much to him and yet he was repeating a bad habit that he hated to be on the receiving end of himself. sighing briskly, keigo let the ribbon hang in the air, his fingers brushing over the reishi before reaching to grab one of renji's hands. he tried to keep a measured look, but he simply couldn't will the redness away that still blossomed across his face.
at least he sounded somewhat calm as he spoke. ]
I'm sorry... I guess... I don't want to bother you with my problems. It's a burden sometimes, being my friend. [ or at least, that was the perception he had developed. ] I'm selfish and loud and I complain a lot... I think I whine about something new every day. [ he laughed a little, then squeezed renji's hand gently. ] So I figure that ... telling people the things that really bother me is overkill, I guess.
[ he tilted his head slightly, canting it toward the ribbon that still floated nearby. ] This way, I can feel you near me and I have a sort of physical tether to focus on. It's kinda like a middle ground for me.
[ keigo was silent briefly, glancing back at renji with pursed lips. ] ... I'm probably over-explaining, aren't I? I guess the long and short of it is that I'm not used to bringing up things that really bother me.
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and keigo nearly continued to keep that part to himself. he looked down at the floor for a moment, then lifted his gaze to renji again. he noted the flushed look on his face, how he was struggling to justify the admission keigo had willingly given up. keigo thought about it in that moment. how often he kept things to himself, how much he truly kept bottled up inside. how much he despaired when his friends did the same thing to him, when they refused to open up to him.
did he really want to continue to do that to renji? he meant so much to him and yet he was repeating a bad habit that he hated to be on the receiving end of himself. sighing briskly, keigo let the ribbon hang in the air, his fingers brushing over the reishi before reaching to grab one of renji's hands. he tried to keep a measured look, but he simply couldn't will the redness away that still blossomed across his face.
at least he sounded somewhat calm as he spoke. ]
I'm sorry... I guess... I don't want to bother you with my problems. It's a burden sometimes, being my friend. [ or at least, that was the perception he had developed. ] I'm selfish and loud and I complain a lot... I think I whine about something new every day. [ he laughed a little, then squeezed renji's hand gently. ] So I figure that ... telling people the things that really bother me is overkill, I guess.
[ he tilted his head slightly, canting it toward the ribbon that still floated nearby. ] This way, I can feel you near me and I have a sort of physical tether to focus on. It's kinda like a middle ground for me.
[ keigo was silent briefly, glancing back at renji with pursed lips. ] ... I'm probably over-explaining, aren't I? I guess the long and short of it is that I'm not used to bringing up things that really bother me.